Life Full of Soul

When I hurt-when tears are shed, I run to the earthly things that fill my pain and desire for the moment. Unfortunately however in the end I am more empty than I first started. It hurts to be treated in a way you don't respect or appreciate. Sometimes it's even harder to watch other people hurt- to be mistreated or abandoned by the people they love, or even their own mothers Because we are all the same inside, because we all have a heart that beats and pumps the same red color blood I would assume most are capable of feeling the good and the bad that this world brings upon our lives. Doesn't that statement allow each of us to draw closer to one another? Shouldn't it guide us in the way we should live our lives. I know the love of the father and I feel his spirit moving through all my days. I imagine his words spoken like Norah Jones' comforting lyrics playing through the radio... God has always been there and he is always waiting open armed. I feel his powerful lov...

Recently I sat in a room with another girl, mediated in conversation. She told me how much she despised me, how much she hated me, and how fake my personality and life is. I am a happy person-or well I used to be. I loved smiling, meeting people, loving my friends, and feeling free in God's presence. Living in a co-op for my second year seems to be one of the worst decisions I have ever made; I don't feel like myself anymore. I feel sorry for myself, threatened by evil, jealousy, hatred. I don't know if later in life I will look back and recognize my sophomore year as a transition, or an awkward phase in college. All I know is that I am tired of being unhappy, and I am tired of suffering in my own pity. Thankfully I have found the few things in life that completely change my thought process; allowing me to escape sometimes completely from the current struggles before me. When I dive into God, music, books, movies and literally the ocean- there's nothing to think about ...