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God gave us a spirit of power, love, and self discipline.

When I hurt-when tears are shed, I run to the earthly things that fill my pain and desire for the moment. Unfortunately however in the end I am more empty than I first started. It hurts to be treated in a way you don't respect or appreciate. Sometimes it's even harder to watch other people hurt- to be mistreated or abandoned by the people they love, or even their own mothers Because we are all the same inside, because we all have a heart that beats and pumps the same red color blood I would assume most are capable of feeling the good and the bad that this world brings upon our lives. Doesn't that statement allow each of us to draw closer to one another? Shouldn't it guide us in the way we should live our lives.

I know the love of the father and I feel his spirit moving through all my days. I imagine his words spoken like Norah Jones' comforting lyrics playing through the radio... God has always been there and he is always waiting open armed. I feel his powerful love most often through people; humans of all ages, races, and cultures. I can see his light in every SINGLE person I meet no matter whether they know of him or not. 

How can I love people this deeply, with such an emotional attachment and yet be afraid with all of my heart of relationships and the things that tag along side?

My friends are everything to me and I am so incredibly lucky to know all of them. The families that have taken me in, the people that have guided me, taught me, encouraged me, challenged my faith, and tested not only my patience but the true heart behind my breast.. I am so thankful for all of you. I am so thankful that you spend time sharing your life, stories, and family with me. Truly believing in the good inside of me.

 If there's a man out there for me- and marriage is truly a possibility, then I need to confront these relationship fears and trust God's plan. I need a man first and foremost to be my friend. I need him to recognize communication as the key to success. I need him to respect my heart and my body. Daily love me for the joy radiating in my heart. Encourage me to shine and show the beauty God called everyone to be. Please support me, guide me, and honestly share your life with me. To be perfect in your eyes without any barrier covering my body. Take me with you to chase your dreams. Let's learn to love each-other, honor our families our mothers and fathers, and the strangers we see daily.

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