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Talk to me Lord I will listen

This November I got the chance to watch home videos and learn a little more about my life- understanding more clearly what happened between my parents and potentially why God had planed it that way. I want to document this, I want to right everything running through my head right now, but I cant. I don't need to.

I love you Lord, I want to give all my worries up to you, I want you to take control. I care about him God, I think I may love him, and if that's so and he isn't a part of your plan then please help me to close the door completely before I follow yours. I wont be a replication of my mom and dad.

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