There's got to be a reason why we can't dig deep sometimes. There's definitely got to be a situation or experience that keeps us from letting love overtake our minds. Why don't we move forward? Why can't one grow to shift the wall of current situations? I'm sadden because I feel I can't be there, because I feel as if I'm not believing or accepting the gifts we've been given. I just want to move closer, I want to move in and unpack the stuff I've yet to forgiven and be forgiven of. Maybe I'm not believing, maybe I'm just not clearly seeing, that the power I've been given can change some habits and bring an abundance of joy to the people who think church is doing nothing. But this isn't a steeple. I'm not taking about an organizational freakish place, I'm talking about a group of people. All I know is that I have a long way to go, and anything can increase but it is he who will bring the true peace. Maybe that's what I'm missing? A decision to overturn my life and let him drive. I can say but do I act, do my words replicate and demand my hearts plan . I'm not asking for a little reassurance, or a trade of this for that, I'm asking you Lord to interject and redirect. I'm asking for you my Man, to wipe my mind and clean my hands. I'm raising it to you. No more false glorification and wrong determination. This is your dream for me and I'm planning accordingly.
I wonder if God has plans for me to Live on a boat Be Homeless Teach Mathematics Work at a University or Community College Own my own bakery Be a wedding planner Teach for Educational Opportunity and Eqaulity Coach Soccer Run my own school Apply math and science to outdoor survival and education Intern with Younglife Host Dinners and parties at my home Build a Small House Bee Keep Be Married Stay Single Get a dog, or a cat Travel back to Europe Work as a Missionary Rollerblade until im too old Write Lyrics for Christian singers Learn Guitar Live with my Dad Have Children Foster Kids Be a surrogate Mother Graduate College Move to a new state Play soccer all the time Do crafts till the break of the morning Bring a dog to work Be a part of a search and rescue team Sail Fish on a fishing boat Workout and get back abs Climb many mountains and through hike the PCT Make New friends Give up my money Run miles after miles Listen to the story of ...