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I want to go home.

Lord, sometimes I run to everything around me before I even consider to come to you. I don't mean to forget you. I don't mean to ignore you. I'm not thinking clearly. I know you have plans for me. I know your putting fire to the flame. I am ready to come home. I am ready to run through fields of death to see your light. So take it. I want to feel the ounce difference in my body. Shake me up, change my goals, change the destination I have so carefully designed. My heart is beginning to ache, its longing for the embrace. I am breathing your breaths, I am singing your songs. I hear your whisper, I see your frames of art. Like the bread, crumble the dead skin and open the wounds that need to be baked. I can close my eyes, but I beg to be changed. You have control. You have my attention. Through the sadness I know its right. I know that you'll be right by my side. No more talk, no more walk. Lets do this right. I want to be your bride. Standing, Ill promise my life. Tree's lifting high, ocean skies burning bright, how else would I, how could I dance like a child.

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